The above was kinda sarcastic because I have no options on where I can or want to go. I am at mercy of the system we call AmeriKKKan capitalisim. It makes me sad and lethargic, however, I've been sad and lethargic for many a year. Now, I have a boyfried, so things are much more tolerable. Adam, is absolutely lovely; I have no financial obligations what-so-ever; which makes me feel good and worthless at the same time. I really have a lot on my mind, but it's about stuff that is insignificant to everyone else and in the grand scheme of things really matters very little. However, to someone that has nothing to do for 12 hours a day, simple things get blown out of porportion. I insteand try to channel this excess energy about worrying about things I cannot controll, to things that I can. It's still all trite and insignificant, no matter what I do, though. I am going to die a big joke no matter what, so my idea is that I might as well fucking enjoy it while I can.